I watch ‘The Biggest Loser’, I’m just going to admit that up front. And throughout this season, which I’ve been so wholeheartedly sucked into, I often hear the participants talk about “my weight loss journey”. I cringed each time at this phrasing, but I think that I’ve come around to it. It’s been 9 years since I first joined Weight Watchers, and then I went on years of cycles where I’d lose 20 or so pounds industriously for 6 months and then put it back on. Throw in a little compulsive binge eating, a little compulsive exercising and an on-again-off-again romance with vegetarianism and veganism (currently on-again, 3 years vegan), and life has been complicated in the body realm.
Even before that, since first grade, I’ve had an unhappy relationship with my body. I’ve always been the tallest and biggest of my groups of friends. Strong, physically so, the ‘guy’ of the group, but never settled in my skin.
Thankfully, 3 years ago, I settled into these cells, and the pounds that had been holding on for years started falling away.
I’m now in the final push of this first part of the rest of my life in my body. I’m 19.8 pounds away from where I want to be. I was 7 pounds ahead in that goal, but I took the last 3 weeks to turn to food instead of dealing with feelings of frustration regarding my budding business.
And so I’ve chosen to start writing here. Anonymously (so unlike me!) Without a doubt, I’ll probably be sharing this with friends as I go along, but for now I’ll be part of the naked crowd bared online.
The plan for tomorrow. Up at 6am to drink my Vega shake and stride out the door to the gym.
75 kettle bell swings (20kg)
20 glute/ham raises
20 flying dogs
maybe 15 minutes on the bike for good luck.
I’m adhering to the minimum effective dosage school of thought of Tim Ferriss in his 4 Hour Body. The plan is to stick to that, to the letter for a month. No fooling. Deal with emotions as emotions, rather than as things to be fed with muffins, candy and chips.
The end goal is Shock and Awe. Awe of what I can accomplish when committed, and shock for those who see the transformation.
Ready… Go!